Untimely.

 No words can do justice to the emotions. No one can replace her existence. And no rituals can change the past.

The last 3 days have been something I never thought I would have to face in life. There was a long long way to go, so many more milestones to be reached and a million memories to be made, but for her untimely demise.

The events of the last 3 days have exposed me to situations I have never thought I (or my sister) would ever have to face in this lifetime. Or atleast, so early on in life. But Fate had ordained otherwise.

I see her in everything around me. Maybe the last meal she cooked, the last dress she got me, the last time we laughed, the last time we hugged and I never thought it would be the last one.

It's very hard to look ahead and imagine a future where she isn't a part. Everyday begins with the painful realization that I can never say 'Morning Maami' and get back a reply. No one will ever ask me if I want kaapi or bourmiie (Bournvita). No one would crack silly PJs like her that would make us both laugh. No one will ask if I've kept my water bottle as I rush to work. No one will load my lunch box with extra spoons and napkins (I would joke that she was giving me bibs). No one will probably ask me to park my Ntorq inside or offer to clean it for me since I was always in a hurry. I could go on forever. I see her in everything around me. I see her love all around me. Just not her. Nobody can love like a mother. Unconditionally.

I only pray for strength for my family and myself. And for Time to heal us.