Bliss.

Bliss.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

Back To December.

So it's holiday season and I'm back in Bangalore. (implies time to go on a blogging spree!) I've been so eager to blog that the day before Physio exam, a considerable amount of time was spent pondering over the various subjects I will blog about when I get home.

Songs have been an integral part of my life. At each phase/ stage, I've been in love with different songs. Here's a glimpse of some of them:

  • Kaho Na Pyaar Hai: My first Bollywood movie. Hrithik Roshan was my "favourite hero". I still love the evergreen songs from this movie.
  • Made In India (Alisha Chinoy): Loved dancing to this as a kid. (This was before I realized I lacked the ability to dance gracefully!)
  • Dhola Re: Danced to this song in school when I was in 2nd standard and subsequently on so many occasions. Bengali attire, saree and exuberance. :)
  • Saathiya: Our first drive to Coorg. When we packed food from Dasaprakash, had lunch on the way and reached the Kodava land after crossing all the "Hairpin bends".
  • Kya Mujhe Pyaar Hai: This was somebody else's favourite song and I slowly began to love it too..
  • Yeh Ishq Hai: Was madly in love with this song during 7th and 8th. The memories make me smile today. :P
  • Dus Bahaane: Singing this on the Karaoke with Nidhi, trying to dance to this silly song. Lol
  • Laari Choti (Ek Chaalis Ki Last Local): First heard it on MTV, nearly 5-6 years ago..
  • Paas Aaya Kyon: The song that puts me to sleep. Since the last few years.
  • Pehli Nazaar Mein: The most long standing favourite song of my life. :)
  • Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna: singing this in 6th, buying the cassette just for this song.
  • Pehli Baar (from Kaminey): during 9th and 10th..
  • Jeeyein Kyun, Te Amo: Dehli Shimla Tour song
  • Lehrein: The sad song for the sad days during PUC
  • Tu Hi Haqeeqat: The Deeksha era
  • Vele (Student of the Year), Piya O Re Piya, Jee Le Zara, In My City (PC): Hostel songs.
  • Tum Hi Ho, Sun Raha Hai Na Tu: The first few months of Medical. (I watched the movie for the first time with Suman on August 15th! :) )
  • Ishaqzaade: Current favourite.
Kaho Na Pyaar Hai
Ye Ishq Hai

                                                   

Lehrein: Aisha


So zooming ahead to December 2013, Internals have been the major event of the month hence that explains the depleting stores of milk and coffee pudi, the perennial brightness in our room (it was like a relay; one sleeps, the other gets up, studies for a while, wakes the 3rd one and goes back to sleep. Hence our room lights were on nearly all night.

The practical exams could have been better, especially Histology and that will hopefully be amended by the next exam. Theory exams were okayish, but frankly, I was saturated by then and couldn't wait for the exams to get over. It's a pity, actually. During the regular academic session, I "hyper-study" purely because I can and I like doing it, but by the time the exams arrive, when I really have to go on the Hyper Mode, I'll be too fatigued and caffeine intoxicated and hence my motivation levels dipped a bit this time. :[

On the friendship front, things are slowly getting better. I mean, I now have a few people I can call friends. Few. I've lost a few people too in the process and unfortunately there were some very disturbing moments, particularly during the internals time but luckily I've decided not to care too much and take things as it comes and NEVER EVER trust people in college. Trust me, I speak from experience. 

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Music Is The Only Constant

In a world where people change, situations change and moods change, music is that blissful constant in our lives that brings back memories, gives a sense of warmth that pierces the thorax, lodges in the middle mediastenum where it penetrates through fibrous and serous pericardia and stimulates the baroreceptors of carotid sinus and aortic arch which stimulates the Vasodepressor Centre which causes a vagal tone and thus brings about bradycardia in a disturbed soul.

Flawed physiology aside, college is progressing as usual. Internals are nearing, panic ought to be setting in but so far it is only superficial and not deep. -_-

My perpetual fears of losing track seems to have amplified, friendships appear to have become strained, it appears impossible to entangle oneself from complications arising due to certain relations and the chill blanket that envelopes the college in the night does not make matters simple for the wannabe owl.

Nutella Addiction is an inexplicably pleasant phenomenon that causes chronic idiopathic shortlived happiness but the positive feedback mechanism that it causes can trigger pangs of craving for that elusive dabbi which cannot be found in all of Shimoga.

Ultimately it's best to be with the few good friends I have from school and college because implicit trust is bad for my own well being. Or am I being obnoxiously cautious to the point of having OCD?

I got a haircut. B-)

Friday, December 6, 2013

Caution.

I don't like it. I don't know what to do about it. I'm worried.