Its Been A While

Its been really long. Since I used a laptop. Lenovo is not bad, but Acer will always be my fav.
Dear Life,
I know you're unfair. I know its pointless to expect that. But is there really a silver lining?
I'm SUFFERING from writer's block and believe me, it Sucks.


I've been reading up on UniMUNQ (Unicef, MUN and Qatar) and its all So interesting! :)
College is fun these days. Qatar gave more opportunity for some comic relief.
But I've been ill-tempered for the last two days. Its irritating when you know it and yet you're still a grouchy git.


Elite classes going on. Class seemed different for the first few days. Now, we've just gotten used to who we really are.


I'm filled with apprehension, guilt and also sadness.
It's hard to cope.
I wish I could rant.
The thing that haunts my life.
That hasn't skipped a single generation.
Something I want to change.
Something that may take away the most precious things of my life.
The people I love.
That has changed the people I loved into people I don't recognize.
That has irrevocably changed me.
That threatens to loom over the sunny landscape of my life. (it already has.)
That has no permanent solution.
I've just got to live with it?
I can't.
I need to change things.
Can I?
Can I face the consequences?
What's the priority?
Happiness.
Pursuit of Happiness.
Its within myself.
Peace.




You don't need an axe to cut a tree. In one corner of the world, they curse the tree until it withers to its death.
Similarly you don't need to physically kill someone. Sharp words can be slow death. I'm watching one.
Honestly, how long can Any Individual endure? What's left within you then? You've nothing to live for.
I need a miracle.
Or maybe I need to do some Math.

Medha's Freaky Guess

No, let's not get into that, but I'll just say that Medha's guessing skills are commendable.
Anyway, it's still the same. But I believe its slightly better. Marginally.
So I heard about the Harvard MUN in Hyderabad and Deeksha College will take part!
I've never been part of a MUN (Because it was never a part of my school CCA and I didnt think we could do it otherwise), so I'm considering this prospect! :) But I need to sort out the realities with Daddy.

That apart, life has been topsy-turvy but I know now that somethings will never be the same again.

Ammensalism
Team A -1
Team B 0

Commensalism
Team A 1
Team B 0

Competition
Team A -1
Team B -1

Mutualism
Team A 1
Team B 1

That's Ecology for you. Lol. No really.
Capacitors +2
Ray Optics +1
Electrostatics 0
Hah.

24 Hours.

A day spent in an endless elusive and unattainable Quest.

It's Been Some Day.

It started at Breakfast break. I knew something was wrong when I felt the way I did. Of course, I was mad at myself. How could I be so Utterly idiotic? After all these years? The intensity of it took me by surprise and I knew I had to get over it.

Lunch Break, I tried hard and succeeded in my Austerity attempt.

I don't believe in Astrology but Amma does and sometimes she sends some message regarding my forecast for the day.

Today's was Strange. Because it was true.

Never Mind. Optics is SO much better than Electrostatics!!

I Did It!!!

There's Nothing Like Success.

Nothing like indulging in something outside your sphere and triumphing.

All you've got to do is believe. Believe that you can do it.

I completed the 10k! :) And in 1.5 hours (as I had expected)

Yeah Me. I couldn't stand below the 'I'm a Finisher' Slogan. Too bad. Nm.

At home, with my medal! and the thing on my T is the 'Running Bib'

I'd like to thank:

Mom and Dad (for believing that I can't do it? Reverse Psychology worked :))

Sanjana (:D)

Raksha (Victory Coin :))

Aneesh (for all the help :))

Pinki (for all the BS :))

Lokesh (How would I make it there?)

Anusha's mom (well, I considered her my competitor!)

And EVERYBODY else who motivated me and also for their contributions for my Fund Raising!

So I'm kinda tired. Fatigue or whatever. Bye

A Bad Blogger Eh?

*It's to late to apologize*

Those who know me, will shake their heads at this, cause they're probably positively tired of my over usage of the word.

Anyway, I've been training and I reached 8k and I know I can do another 10 and hopefully quick enough to get that Blue T. Problem is, I fell ill and all 'Bulla Shitta' happened. But I'm fine now (if you exclude the throbbing pain in my brain that makes me feel maybe all the effort will go down the drain [OK, that's NOT gonna happen])

College is nice these days. With circular squares and Jalaja jokes, and the occasional palak paneer to add some spice (no pun, losers), I'm laughing more than ever. :)

I raised funds for Sahasra Deepika (an NGO working to educate underprivileged children) as a part of my 10k run. I just need to hand it over.

Hmm. So I've been wondering. People are (re)taking the SAT. I know, I know I said I wont take it again. But I have to take the Subject SATs right?


I guess I have some time to think about it. The next SAT is in October, so I can look at my options around August and take a call. :)

Hmm?

Maybe This Is How It's Meant To Be?

So far, It's been great!

I'm enjoying every bit of it.

Yesterday's Menu:

• Cornflakes for breakfast at home
• Chapathi and Beans side-dish for college breakfast
• Dal fry and rice for Lunch
• Eggs for Evening snack
• Apple for Dinner

Today's Menu:

• Chapathi and Channa Masala for breakfast at home
• Biscuits for college breakfast
• I'd made chitranna but it didn't quite match up to Amma's standards, so I had some more chapathi and channa
• Noodles for Evening snack
• Pizza for Dinner

And the other things I wouldn't otherwise bother about; I take care of those too. All in all, it's a radical experience, one that I'd be happy to continue.

I'm saying, maybe it's I'm designed to function better this way, independent living makes me more alert and vigilant. Also it makes me more aware, of myself. Why? well because otherwise, my thoughts are always partially diverted towards what's going to happen next? When's the next personal Apocalypse? What effect will my hasty words have on certain people? What consequences do I have to face when I return?

I'm not against company, no, certainly not. I'm just saying to 'live with' I'd rather live alone than anything else. Bu then again, they're family and what I'm saying is probably bizarre.

But there's no denying that I'm enjoying this stint. I can say that without bothering about political correctness.

The blogosphere is too silent for my comfort. All I can hear is the echo of my rambles.

Seeya! :D

No Explanations.(2)

By Myself.

This is something I've always wanted. And I'm so glad it all worked out!

Mom Dad and Di are on vacation. I'm here, doing everything on my own! Yay! I went and got myself some MTR Ready to Eat stuff for tomorrow. Now I need to make sure everything is locked up and head for bed :)

Pinki and Sanjana shouldn't be panicking. Really. I'm not a Kid.

And Umm. I've gotta learn how to use Blogger Mobile. I'd probably be more regular then.

Given that my Laptop is smashed beyond repair.

You know what?

Somethings don't just fade away from memory for eternity. Atleast in my case. The deepest scars will always show.

• 23rd September 2008
• 25th December 2010
• 1st November 2011

Blah. Blah. Blah.

The first one is probably the one that made me feel worst. The rest aren't even my fault, but it doesn't work that way does it?

Looking back, several years of my childhood now appear misty and dreamlike. Everything about those years makes me wonder about the incredible reality called the Present. I mean, there have certainly been drastic changes.

I've been dreaming a bit lately. They're the silliest ever.
But some of them can be unsettling. Like those that replay the bits of reality I want to forget.

One way to cope with an unpredictable life is to stay aloof, but not in the indifferent way.

• I mean you just take things as they come.
• Accept the fact that a lot of things are not in your control. 
• Don't be overwhelmed by anything; good or bad.
• Save for the rainy day.
• Do not form too close associations. You never know what's going to happen. You don't want to end up hurting anybody.
• Be prepared for a 100 million mood swings a day.
• Don't let anything affect your ambitions.

Toodles!